What made you stop being an addict?

This was February 2019.

All I knew was that, I couldn't masturbate without p*rn. I was first getting the urge to watch p*rn, while watching, I would now feel like masturbating.

And I can also talk to them now.

My parents force me (15yo atheist) to go to church, and there’s this thing called Small Sundays where we discuss the Bible in groups, there are questions asked about the Bible. What am I supposed to do when they ask?

Now how do you quit your addiction?

I knew something had to be done about my wasting existence because if nothing changes, then nothing changes.

There were times I could go 3 months without watching p*rn or masturbating but somehow I always came back to it.

My religion teacher said that there are no atheists because in order to reject God, you must first have a concept of God, and if you have a concept of God, you are not an atheist. In what way is this true, if at all? Why?

Oh, and everyday I woke up tired 😫 I never slept early too. My mental health was nothing to write home about.

I saw every girl or woman as a sex object including kid girls. There was no way I would look at a woman and not think of f*cking her.

So I thought had unlocked a new potential in life. I was doing it even if I don't feel the urge. I forced the urge to come by watching pornography.

How did the Nazis figure out whether a person or community is 'Aryan' or not?

So I'm still hanging on this lie.

But for me, I would say RUN away from it

I didn't even start counting the days because I didn't really believe I would get this far.

When sharing a wife, is it best with your buddy or a stranger?

Am I totally free? I don't know 😕

And these were just the act and not the mental and social problems associated with addiction.

It didn't feel great after ejaculating but hey, who cares about feelings?

Why does a narcissist act like it's nothing when they hurt you?

And I DID IT EVERYDAY

Now I have the mental fortitude to face life's every day battles.

Is masturbation and p*rn bad?

What is the gayest experience you have seen in prison?

I did it in my room. I did it in my washroom. I did it in school in the washrooms.

Remember, if nothing changes, nothing changes.

Around age 9 I discovered pornography through my uncle, he had left the CD in the video player in the night after enjoying himself.

Why are the bands Smashmouth and Nickelback often used as punchlines?

I always wished they would sit inappropriately or the wind would blow up their dress so I can see things.

I remember I once did it in my classroom at dawn. I did it in the hospital's washrooms. I did it in the lab where I work; both daytime and midnight.

I did it while watching my sister. I did it while touching my sister 😭 I did it while watching my landlord's daughter.

Is it possible for sisters to have different skin, hair colours, and hair types? E.g. hair= wavy, afro, straight, curly, black, brown, blonde, red. Skin colour: brown, peach, light brown and more.

It took me days to finish watching them. Finally I decided to go to the washroom to do The Last Fap.

I started rubbing it and I liked how I was feeling so I kept on doing it faster and EUREKA, sperms came out of my dick.

There were times I was counting the days when I'm clean. But now I don't, because I got tired of counting and relapsing and starting all over again.

What celebrity do you admire the most?

I secretly kept on watching and watching until I got 19. At this time, I had started feeling the urge to ejaculate as I was watching the pornography.

I know some people masturbate and they don't have the problems I went through.

Have I stopped seeing girls as sex objects? Not entirely, I still want to f*ck some of them.

What happens to single guys when they get older?

The harder I tried, the worse it became. I could get angry with myself and go about 3 days without it but when I relapse, I can do 3 in a day. And the subsequent days; it's just me getting drowned in the rabbit hole.

I knew about masturbation but I didn't actually think of doing it but one day, on my bed when I was preparing to go to school I was watching pornography and something just came in mind; why don't you rob your dick with your hand?

Now I know I have all the nice videos on my phone, the rest I don't have, are not nice. So I had to start watching them one after the other. Some of them were even 2 hours long but I made sure I watched every little bit of it.

I did it in my administrator's office.

Just keep trying

I got tired of always breaking the promises I made to myself.

Do I wake up everyday with lots of energy? No but that's because I have a health problem, which is a story for another day.

But how was I going to do it when everything I knew wasn't working? I didn't know

I went on my favourite site and started scrolling through my favourite categories; petite girls, sleeping girls, Japanese girls, Japanese mom, Japanese wife, massage, forced, in the bus, gangb*ng, Muslim girls, ebony, student and teacher, in the classroom, curvy, African, etc

I just finished watching the best of the best p*rn videos on the planet. Now there's nothing else to look for on p*rn sites again.

So all I had to do was to find a way to trick my dirty brain to think that p*rn isn't nice.

I don't know if all addictions are like this 🤔

I went there early in the morning trying to watch a movie and I found the CD inside the video player so I decided to watch what was on it and that was the beginning of the life I never wanted.

I so badly wanted to f*uk a girl, yet I was so shy of girls. I never wanted to meet anyone. I always wanted to hide behind the phone and text.

Read that again ☝️

A couple of months later I started hating it and regretting after every session. Yet, I couldn't stop.

Was quitting worth the effort? At least for my mental health, it's a billion times worth it.

I made sure I downloaded every video that was nice for me. This took almost the whole day.

Now I don't wait to be talked to before I respond. I talk when I think I'm supposed to.

No self esteem. No confidence. No ambition. Just dreams.

I remember sitting on the bed and smiling and that was when it hit me that I have successfully masturbated.

RUN 🏃‍♂️ for your dear life